Oh My God........I falling in to a Man i din though i will ,!!!! But it was really happen it withot i noticed !!! when my friend found all my weird attitude , then i only realized . After break With him ... this the 1st one i few surprise which i think i will not falling with anyone again in this two year !! why ..?? for me , He still not the person i dream for !!! How can i stop my mind to thinking of him again ( I was trying to escape from all of this )!! But , now I will sensitive for him everything !! Event , the way he talking , smile , angry , ''fight ''( is not the real fight ) , doing wat , thinking of wat . i also interested to know it !! I din know i can become so crazy of him ( A lot of time i was trying to stop and cool down myself ) , He know a lot , teach me a lot ( Dunno when i was falling in to him ) !! Now , event my working time , sleeping time , my mind will full of him ... when i talking to ppl or i trying to said something , i was call his name without notice , i do lot of day dream now , writing his name repeat & repeat on piece of blank paper ....................... Ohhhhhhhh ... i also wish to see him everyday , event heard him voice !!! What going on with me .. my exam will come soon ... Wat such i do now ... i really dun have any mood to study at this moment !! i keep told my self need to be 'Cool ' !! Ying was told me that , is time for looking for someone new in my life .. You know , i just can't , like Mr ''D '' case , i knew i hurt him a lot , i knew he treat me good , i knew i was also into him on very 1st moment ! Mr Prince have been tell me , he was afford to paid for wat i spend , did i accept him , 5 yrs ago , i know way actually he was trying to tell me .... but i still dun have any felling with him ...!! but really wat happen to me now .....But dunno why i just can't accept he treat me too good , he tell me he cannot lived without me , at this moment , made me feel like , i want to escape from him !! feel scared i dunno why !! Is that this , i will be the same , !! i maybe is the type ppl who just can like ppl , but afraid to tie up wit commitment in journey of Love , i know noting will come easily for me !! On 260909 .. i went to my cousin Wedding .. huh ..is a romantic couple .. how sweet are they ?? Will i meet someone like that , who can take care of me in a life time , who really understand of me .......!! HAIZ .. never mind tomoro will be more better , Which i always trust in luck ...hehehehe ,... !! Happy go Luky wat ....!! Gambathe Crystal ... Let life go simple & smooth !! My white horse Prince will come !!!